I have been doomed so many times. I should be used to it by now, but the dreaming still affects me, some sort of fantasy that spills from my sleep still has me running around like a chicken with its head cut off (so to speak). Perhaps it is all a matter of degree. In me there whispers a comforting tune, that tells me that the curse is over, but the testing of this idea still comes at me in visions of despair. I will always fight them. Their resolutions are varied and sometimes intense, but sometimes all it requires is to understand that these — they are only a dream. And like all dreams, I may not ever find their true meaning, merely to wake, shake them off, and go on with living. This is the best of all of us.
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3:29am friday, 14th december
I just finished a semester at college.I have to lie to live.I will make almost straight a's.but the testing of this idea still comes at me in visions of despair.I WANT TO MAKE FRIENDS, BUT I CAN'T.Insane
Reflection
3:31am friday, 14th december
I always thought I would have a pretty girl, on some coast of beautiful Island.
Reflection
3:35am friday, 14th december
Not all is despair.Trust yourself, maybe the highest powers have not spoken?
Stand
5:14am friday, 14th december
The only thing I've ever found out: you never know.
Reflection
10:03pm saturday, 15th december
I got all my grades today.Straight A's in all 4 classes.I'm taking computer web design courses.If they only new I have to meditate most of the day to not freak out.Here's one for the crazys.Drink up!
Stand
10:31pm saturday, 15th december
Congrats!
Reflection
10:56pm saturday, 15th december
Yeah, its pretty insane Stand.Just in about april of this year, I was Baker Acted again.
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