It is in being alone where the mind wanders, island to island of thought. The fear still presents itself at times, that I am damned, that I am lost, that I have turned myself into the Antichrist through my weakness, that the world is crueler than I had ever imagined. Perhaps that last one is true, and items in the news bear me out on it, but then I think of one Philip K. Dick. I am so like him, and he once thought himself shut off from the promised salvation. But I know that he was a true prophet of the modern age, and like the thief beside the crucified Christ, one who is so definitely in Paradise. And then I am calmed, for I trust in the mercy of God. Not that He would spare me from my own cross, but to he who perseveres to the end, the eternal life of the saints. However lowly I am in the ranks of the saved. Hallelujah.
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8:35pm friday, 25th january
"in aspiring to supreme spiritual wisdom, the mind ought to be insensible to every sensuous influence, and be independent of everything pertaining to form, sound, odour, taste, touch, or discrimination. There ought to be cultivated a condition of complete independence of mind; because, if the mind is depending upon any external thing, it is cherishing a delusion; IN REALITY, THERE IS NOTHING EXTERNAL TO THE MIND. Even the whole realm of sentient life is ephemeral and illusory. Therefore, in the exercise of this Paramita, the mind of an enlightened disciple ought to be unperturbed by any form of phenomena." -The Diamond Sutra
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8:47pm friday, 25th january
I have been practising extreme meditation for about 9 ¥ears now.For about a whole year I repeated the number 1 in my head over, and over, and over, and over.Just to try and sort of control my thought process.Then I went to deeper meditation levels, and now I'm really at a weird level.I read the diamond sutra the other day, and I really understand it.Once you understand it, you realize its not even there.To completely silence your mind til no thoughts even arise is as pure as a human can hope to be.I know, because I can do it.You will basically drive yourself nuts trying to achieve it, but it is possible, and once you get there you know you have arrived.
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10:52pm friday, 25th january
I think not that Jesus and Buddha are alike.I think Jesus would like to be Buddha.
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12:07am saturday, 26th january
The whole good versus evil seems oblivious to a billion yrs of living.
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12:57am saturday, 26th january
The diamond sutra is for people (not gods) who love peace.Who just want to exist in their true nature.I guess evil comes from GOD.
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3:08am saturday, 26th january
Its ok to spit.
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3:30am saturday, 26th january
Hahahahahahahaha!
Anonymous
6:49am saturday, 26th january
I guess you were illuminated.
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6:51am saturday, 26th january
In the path you will be defeated, but on that path you will be yourself.
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6:57am saturday, 26th january
Even the slightest of nods to a blind person, is worth more than the tomb of a saint.
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