I am one step from a whirlwind, and I know that once I enter, there is no turning back. It is a step out of the machinery, into the wild turbulence of freedom. In the shadow of the dreaming, what has been imagined is to rush forth into the fray of life awakening, to know the air that holds the promise of a thousand hopes. Shall I be torn to shreds by the wild currents? Or shall I find some new balance, and find the courage to ride the elemental thrashing? One cannot tell from without what the experience is to be, within. And what matters if I am spit out from the thrill, beaten and broken? I must give my best face to what comes, step forward into the brave new future. And know that I have danced with fate, dreamt with the best.
Reflection
8:44pm wednesday, 6th february
Other people are excited,
as though they were at a parade.
I alone don't care,
I alone am expressionless,
like an infant before it can smile.
- taoist sage
Reflection
11:43pm friday, 8th february
Stand, you need to meditate.You have to get where you are your pure state.I'll tell you a secret.I had a vision of a God(thats the best way I can describe it)I was three quarters drunk mind you.I saw the vision inside myself.It was like I was looking at my stomach.It was like nothing seen.
Reflection
11:53pm friday, 8th february
oh yeah, I forgot to tell you what it looked like.It looked like a guardian standing in front of one of the temples on earth.It was completely gold, and it was perfect as far as my vision goes.(my human vision)I want to say it was a tao guardian,but i'm unsure.I'm not really smart on Gods.This was about 3 years ago.
"don't stop beleiving, hold onto that feeling"- journey
reflection
12:08am saturday, 9th february
Stand I hope you understand these things are privy.I hope you understand, no matter how smart a person is, they are still subject to their shell.
Stand
12:43am saturday, 9th february
Unfortunately, I am nowhere near disciplined enough to meditate.
Reflection
Reflection
Stand