still the numbers dance before me
yet rendering a prophet’s messages
striking out to me in claws of despair
there is salvation in the curves of the 3
there is doom where the loop of 6 meets
36 is a myth, however, not the sum of them
11 and 7, and 2 — will their voices ever silence?
Reflection
3:13pm friday, 13th february
What he said.............
Reflection
8:24pm friday, 13th february
Your not the only one Stand who is troubled by numbers.(I'm not troubled by it, I know Gods humour very well.) My story.I see the time...6:07.all the time. I mean all the time. Its insane how many times I looked at a digital clock and saw that time...I interpret it as good and evil...6(Evil).7(good).....or choose good or evil.....Let the trumpets sound, and lets get this shit over with.
reflection
9:30pm friday, 13th february
The lords prayer means someone on earth is as holy as God and will call heaven to earth.
Strawberry
5:21pm saturday, 14th february
I wear a necklace that is shaped in the number 9. I usually never take it off. It is white gold with little diamonds in it. I bought it when I was learning about Tarot cards and noticed that the nines (nine of Wands, Cups, Swords, & Disks) all had meanings that summed up my life.
First is Strength. I believe myself to be a strong woman.
Next is Happiness. I laugh and smile a lot, have good people around me and fun things to do. I can laugh and crack a joke even when I feel suicidal - a bit of a useful talent.
Then there is Cruelty in my life. Mental cruelty to be exact. I struggle with a schizoaffective disorder that sometimes makes me ashamed of who I am, sometimes makes me despair. It is hard to have a brain that only works half of the time. Emotions aside, I experience my illness like simple brain damage, like I've been in a car accident and smashed my head against the windshield. Sometimes I simply can't think, it tends to make me very withdrawn.
Last is Gain. I've been rich and I've been poor but most of the time I've had everything I ever needed and a little bit left over to buy a silk shirt. Silk being a material that feels wonderful against your skin. When I was poor my silk shirts came from the Salvation Army thrift store, more recently I bought one new from Banana Republic.
I think of the nine I wear and I see a balance of good things and bad, with the weight of the good much greater than the bad. The number 9 also is a place on the Jewish Kabbalah's Tree of Life. For me the Tree of Life has always been a bit hard to understand, but as far as I can tell, the 9th spot (out of a possible 10) is a good spot.
What does the number 9 mean to you Stand?
Stand
11:17pm saturday, 14th february
9 is the most neutral number to me. It stands for "reality" in my personal numerology. Practicality. Solid stuff.
Reflection
Strawberry
Stand