As the day we celebrate as the birthdate of the Lord Jesus Christ our savior is nigh, let me write a little about what that babe wrapped in swaddling clothing has done with this soul who once was so lost. Merry Christmas.
I used to wait for the end of the world. Back in high school, I thought that Nostradamus had predicted that a nuclear war would wipe out civilization in the year 1987. I half took it seriously, and I told my friends that if the radio would broadcast that the missiles were flying, I would go out into the middle of a street and lie down, wait for the blast. All it was, really, was an excuse not to want to do anything, not to look to the future, not to accomplish what I could. Back then I took everything only half seriously. I was waiting for something, I didn't know what. In college, after the drugs numbed everything, the madness then hit. I think that ended up being what I was waiting for — too huge to avoid, even with the best excuses.
God saved me. Jesus Christ saved me. I have no doubt that if I had not found God — if the Lord had not found me — I would still be babbling to the walls, so to speak. How do I know there's a God, and that Jesus Christ is my personal savior? That's an easy one, gentle reader. My life turned around when God found me. When I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord, I became a human being for the first time in my life — without excuses why I should not be living. My prayers got answered, as I have written previously here in my journal. When the chips were down — when I was at my lowest point — He came and dug me from the depths of madness, out into the clear air. I no longer wait: He gave me the dreams to keep on.
Serena190
5:50am tuesday, 25th december
*smiles* Beautiful. God is wonderful. God bless you. Merry Christmas, Stand.
Brigid
1:48am wednesday, 26th december
I've been brought up around Christianity and basically forced into it...into going to those church services that my dad sleeps through. I understand that god found you but what if you've already been found and just don't want it. I might just be immature and not care at this point but all i'm saying is that there's more to life than just talking about how god saved you and well it's very boring. Talk more about those times when you didn't have god...
Stand
6:28am wednesday, 26th december
Thank you, Brigid, for your honesty. I'll see what I can do.
Serena190
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