Dreams and madness. That sums up my whole life. Dreams and madness. Which will win, I wonder? Which will be the overarching theme my life will be remembered by? Hm.... Perhaps the saddest thing one could say of one gone from this world would be, "He had such potential." We regret what might have been. And what evokes pity like the words, "if only"? I have such dreams, and I don't know — I don't know what will become of them. Time passes strangely, as I have read it pass for others, too: the weeks pass quicker than the hours, the years pass quicker than the days. I make so the much littler progress on the dreams I have than I imagine I could... I must try, though. I can't give up — there is nothing else left in the world for me if I should not try. I can't abide the "if only".
The madness was easier; the madness took care of itself. Strange creations burst forth, bent and brooding beasts lived with me for years. Time seemed to stand still, all that while, and when I awoke from the pit, the world had mysteriously aged. I wonder if I grew older, really. I missed out on a decade of my life, it feels like. But no, let's not let the "if only" seep in — good things did happen, there in the dark places, deep in my hole. Perhaps I did mature, those years, even alone that I was: I looked deeper into myself than most people ever do, deeper than most people would care to look. I suffered. And perhaps it requires to comprehend another's pain only if he has felt such himself. I can say, genuinely, "I understand", and that as a prize makes me look back and wonder, would I do it differently?
Rick
1:53pm wednesday, 9th january
You are known for surviving schizophrenia by at least one person and that may be you alone who is ever sure of this. That is one hell of an achievment.I think, most of the time, that I would trade in schizophrenia for a used metro or something but I sometimes find hope in pages like your own. People do want to hear about it!!
Taylor
11:10pm wednesday, 9th january
Hi I was wondering if you could help me out. I am a 7th grade student at a Maryland public school. I have a report to do on the dease Schizophrenia. I was wondering since you are an expert on the dease if you could help me out. I would like to ask you some questions. If you are willing to answer them email me at writersblock12@yahoo.com. I will than tell you the questions I would like you to answer. Please help me out
Taylor
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12:28am friday, 26th april
When I read this I saw myself. Dreams take so much time, but what would we be without them. Madness always there everywhere I look, always taking over. Trying for me is difficult, never seems to work. But to give up is to waste life, and life is all the importance. People like you get me through each day. Write away your sarrows. Thanks.
Rick
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