OK, going to go away for another little while. Maybe a couple months this time. I’m in the middle of testing out the code I wrote for my AI, and it’s going well so far. If I get this prototype written and functioning, basically, I’m set for life (not sure if I said that here before or not). And then there’s the New Zealand trip coming up, and I have no idea what’s going to happen there. I have prayed that at the very least, let me have a good story to tell at the end of it. Basically, I have been getting prepared for the worst, so if anything good at all comes of it, I hope that I will be satisfied. (Though maybe a really horrible experience, actually, would make for a better story. Whatever.) And on a side note, my brother is out of a job for the third time in a year. Man, I hope he gets his act together. I don’t know why I mention him, just this all is what is on my mind. As I swim away, waving....
Reflection
12:36pm sunday, 25th march
Listen to this song Stand.Its my favorite song. Its called troubadour love song. It will give you the courage to slay the dragon and capture your damsel..;)
When all else has failed.
When I trusted I fell deeper than I ever could alone.
I love myself.
I do believe in dinosaurs.
I do believe in ancient Gods.
When I trust myself..........
Reflection
1:26am monday, 9th april
Stand.. from the beginning I was just messin with you.............I knew then the power of the fence...........Stand you are the highest.........
And yes Stand............Music can not be played for themselves.........And yes........this is just a childest gift for all the memories who hold true........
At last we reach the end of the play.
The final chapter.
Where the mystery unfolds.
Where all doubt will be erased.
Much pity on those with the most doubt?
Only time will tell.
Comb your hair and get ready for the show.....The parodox of love.........
The Paradox......
Will love ever be told?
Will that much courage be put in words?
Is it worth it?
The dragon sleeps and wonders.
The Angel sleeps and wonders.
God sleeps and wonders..
Can I be loved?
Reflection
1:59pm monday, 21st may
Words spoken by a demon during exorcism.
“A deal, Peter! Let’s talk of the Un in the All-Holy. Aleph. Beth. Gimel. Daleth. Shin. Forget your Hebrew in all that hair and skin?”
“Pleasure pleasure huh pain. Hot hot huh cold.” Then in a chain of words pasted together in a scream: “Updownfatthinhighlowhardsoftlongshortlight-darknesstopbottominsideoutsidealleachalleachalleachchchchchchchch-ch . . .”
“Well! Here we have a thing never seen in the Kingdom”-the voice calm again-“a little drop of sea water pulls a little membrane around it and rots for a million years on an ancient, forgotten shore, and sprouts little hair-trigger nerves and puny little earthen mechanisms, and stands up on two spindly limbs one day, and says, ‘I am a man,’ and lifts its snout to skies above and says again, ‘I am so beautiful’ . . .”
“He who is not with me,” she took up, interrupting in a dreadfully mocking falsetto, “is against me, sez the Lord. No man can serve two masters, sez the Lord.” Lowering her tone: “Ever see two pricks in the ass and cunt of one broad and she pumping back and forth servicing two masters?”
“Saying to the Yin in me: Thou shalt not have thine Yang. Saying to the Yang in you: Thou shalt not have a Yin ...”
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Fgeragup
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