I am not a butterfly dreaming I am a man. This, I think I have earned. If you don't know what I'm talking about, here:
"Once upon a time, Chuang Tzu dreamed that he was a butterfly, flying about enjoying itself. It did not know that it was Chuang Chou. Suddenly he awoke, and veritably was Chuang Chou again. He did not know whether it was Chuang Chou dreaming that he was a butterfly, or whether it was the butterfly dreaming that it was Chuang Chou."
Yes, very nice and all that. What I'm talking about though, is that I am not the things I have imagined myself to be. I am not the Antichrist dreaming that I am a normal man, nor am I the Archangel Micha-el dreaming that I am a normal man; I am not any of the other things I have believed I was, either. I am a normal man. I have earned that, I think, paid for it in suffering — that plain fact, spelled out there. A mundane absolute that most people take for granted, I had to come from down there below the sanity line, climbing to where normal people are every day. I have gritted my teeth to ride out the episodes of my madness. I have survived.
To anyone else out there who may still be in the throes of believing they're a butterfly dreaming it is a man (or woman), I'm here to tell you that you can make it. You can make it back, back to here, now, the cherished humdrum day. Other people have made it, too. It doesn't have to be forever that you're sliding in the pit — though I'm sorry to say it may just feel like it. And to those people who have experienced none of the manic heights nor the bottomless lows, the crisis situations from something as innocent as a glass of water, maybe thank whichever deity you believe in (or thank the universe if none) at least once for all the everyday days you have experienced: "Nobody realizes that some people expend tremendous energy merely to be normal." - Albert Camus
I have dreamed I was a butterfly. In Hell. Thank God, I am not.
britHunter
7:31am tuesday, 8th january
I have found someone who understands the madness . Thank you
A. N. Mous
2:29am wednesday, 9th january
It is one hell of a ride, pun intended. Yet I think once you make it through to the other side, you can really appreciate existance all the more.
Rick
9:55am wednesday, 9th january
Yea!!!!! Yes, Great. Said well. Normal is a High Achievment because it is low sometimes. You write well on Madness, take it from a madman. But my Korian(don't forgive the misspelling) son(moon) whatever. Delve back and grab the gold, like what you have written here. Speak to me!!! Preach, Teach, find the breach and break down the walls, fall Promethious with the fire in hand.
Koria-Goddess of The Moon(Luna
10:00am wednesday, 9th january
Luna tick tick goes the Time keeper, 28 days, 28 nights Nu I the goddess too. We are Monday morning Blue all us All You. Butterfly, moth, find the flame whoever you are.
andrea h.
3:04pm tuesday, 15th january
I am only in the eighth grade and am
understanding what you go through i am trying to
find a better cure for Scizophrenia
and i hope it will be useful.
britHunter
A. N. Mous
Rick
Koria-Goddess of The Moon(Luna