So things are different, these days. There is still something of the demon that was left, when I performed that self-exorcism, but I know it is not really him, but an image, like all the people I meet in my head — like people you meet in a dream. The demon seems like he’s still here, but he seems like half his former self. All that is left to power the image is a curse that the actual demon left behind; and that, too, is starting to dissipate. At my worst, I used to reach out as if spatially in my mind, and that was indicative of the madness, and now that space seems to be shrinking: I am coming back to myself, the mind is becoming integrated again, as it was before all the drugs so derailed it.... And in other news, I’ve gotten a position at a place called Learning Tree, where I will apparently be teaching a course in C#. It’s good pay, and I’m realizing now that this is one of those life changing events. Also, the Russian model may be coming back into town. Fingers crossed for that, but I’m not giving that more than a 40% chance of happening. Better than nothing though. Later.
Reflection
12:41am thursday, 6th september
Ok, this is the lat one I am going to post for a bit..The next one is gonna blow your mind Stand and cause you to run around New York naked at 4 in the morning..This I did for a friend........I'll give you a hint at my next drawing..Its gonna be called "The great mystery."..So far I have a Angel playing a stand up bass and the devil playing a harp....Its gonna be weird..
Reflection
1:36pm thursday, 6th september
Did you see Strawberrys new painting Stand?..I'm impressed..She is onto something there....I'm almost ready to go to oil paints..I'm gonna blow Strawberrys mind, which is probably pretty hard to do, all things considered..LOL..There's only room for one eccentric, psycho artist in this world, and its gonna be me..Run for the hills Strawberry I'm coming..LOL
I just pondered something..You are going to be a teacher, and here you are performing self exorcisms on yourself..LOL......Student: Excuse me teacher, but these programming loops and codes are getting boring....We want to hear about your self exorcisms.....LOL..........Too funny....
Stand
5:25pm thursday, 6th september
Yeah, you guys are the only ones who know anything about that, currently. I don't tell many people about that sort of thing.
Reflection
8:24pm thursday, 6th september
In school I hated C#...I thought it was confusing..I excelled in Java and C and even C++..I didn't really like C# and I wasn't good in Visual basic either....I was hearing voices pretty bad while I was taking those programming classes, also getting straight A's , but I would get drunk and then rant on the class online discussion and question board..LOL..Then have to come to class as "That strange guy.".......But I think most programmers are a bit weird..Most are pretty very intelligent and that comes with weirdness....
Reflection
8:05pm friday, 7th september
Tell me how you interpret this song Stand...Listen to the whole thing all the way through and then talk about how you perceive it. Its very haunting to me.....
What the heck was that? And why did it have to be so long? Scattered thoughts...
Reflection
1:09am saturday, 8th september
LOL..Its funny how music can be totally different to people..I've been in to Bowie lately a bit..You thought that was wierd..Listen to this and watch the video.......I'm not a cross dresser but I really like this song....
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