What would you give up to follow a dream? How much could you let go? Would you go as far as to give up everything for a hopeless cause? Very few people would go to that extreme, I would think; those people would be what we call the saints. What is the mathematics of sacrifice? I mean, how do we decide what is worth it to give up by what you expect in return — how would you calculate that threshold? Sometimes they are very rough numbers, figured in a rush lest the opportunity evaporate while we deliberate. Much of experience is like that, hurried decisions that lead to life changing events — we all have built on such choices in our past.
I think no one knows himself well enough to really be sure of what we'd give up for a dream. We don't know really what we will decide in the moment of truth until we actually get to that moment, when fate breathes down our neck at a crossroad that will alter us inexorably. I don't even think we can really prepare for such a moment, either. I think the best we can do is hope and pray. I hope fate will be kind, I pray the Lord is merciful. I hope that I will have courage to sacrifice, I pray that in the mathematics of letting go I will listen to the numbers played by my heart. And I think sometimes — just sometimes — I will be good enough.
LG
12:44am sunday, 13th january
I have gone to great extremes, leaping to my doom to catch fleeting hopes and dreams. And what goes through my mind during that turning point?...."I have nothing to lose if I follow this dream. In the end, I will still have my madness, but without it, I would never have the fervent courage that drives me to gallant leaps."
Raymond
4:59pm sunday, 13th january
Dreams chasing what a wonderful thing.Most people do not get a chance to chase their dreams.Most people do not have dreams;they are trying to exsist in this life.Rich people do not have to worry about money;because they have money.Poorer people have to work as hard as they can to make as much money as possible to survive.Is this normal for for people without much money ;or is it just a perception that I reflect?DO I have a dream to follow?NO.Will I look for a dream to chase?Yes.Have I just been so wrapped up in trying to live that I forgot how to live.There are things out there that need to be done;things that I need to do.I have learned through examing myself that I was a bump on a log;not anymore.It is my life and I am going to try and make it the best life that I can live.
LG