Sometimes I anticipate the horrible news. Perhaps innocent enough, the prompt, but ah, what the paranoid in me fills in with what is to follow. Why should I believe it? Like thinking of what my boss was going to say to me, “You’re fired. This is real.” This, when rational thought concludes that my boss, my friend, would never fire me. Maybe for gross incompetence, and I don’t think I’ll ever go there. When I had a girlfriend, when she started with, “Sorry”, I would imagine her next sentence would be, “I’m breaking up with you” — no such words would follow. (She broke up with me in fact when I least suspected she would, in fact.) So time after time, the paranoia bears no fruit. Yet it still happens: that the moment will go completely awry, I will suspect the worst. I don’t know if this is an evolutionary advantage. But the relief, when the worst does not come to be: it’s almost worth the price of admission. Almost.
Reflection
12:59pm sunday, 25th may
You can't rule the empire with demons lurking about. "Worry" is of evil.
I had the coolest out of body experience last night. All this good feeling energy came through me and I was flying through deep space on this skinny snowboard looking thing like I was surfing. I then fell off of it into this hole where all these spaceships were fighting and I landed in this pool of like water or something. The robots from the Star Wars movie were there. C-3PO and R2-D2. They said "It's someone who is dead to the world, how did you get here.".........Then this giant worm monster started coming to attack us and then I awoke in my body......It was the coolest experience ever.........I know it sounds nuts, but it really happened. I think we are in some sort of thought projection/computer reality..............I just said "I know it sounds nuts" to you Stand. Ha,ha,ha,ha........That's funny.
Stand
3:13pm tuesday, 27th may
Yeah, that IS funny.
Reflection
11:23am thursday, 29th may
I channeled a poem last night. I think God is saying "Warning, warning".......LOL
Tell
Walk in the shoes of mine, to see romance flurry beyond the stars. Captivating all precious miracles together as one giant cosmic orgasm. Embracing the sphere of intelligent love which holds no bounds either in fury or delightful sway. A sacrament of fever to the wise and a challenge to the unbelieving who stand no ground to the ways of love. A soldier awaiting trial for it's own misgivings is better than a fool who arrogantly persuades force, and challenges the deeper knowings of time eternal. A fool walks prideful, and knows time is just a stamp on his shoulder which trembles when the grave speaks so soon.
Reflection
Stand