One thing that keeps me going is a truth I don't think churches tell you about. They may, actually, but not quite in the words I'm going to use. No matter what you do, whatever kind of messes you get yourself into, if you turn back to God, He'll take you back. If you turn away a hundred times and screw up your life yet again, a hundred times He'll be there to pick up the pieces, clean up the mess — a hundred times He'll welcome you back. And He knows better than you that you do it out of desperation, because nothing else in your life is working out. God knows all the times you use Him as your last resort, but you know what? God loves you that much. That's the thing people keep from themselves, thinking they need some excuse to turn to God. You may be fooling yourself, but Him you're not fooling. He'll take you back, excuse or no.
It does take turning to Him, though, but even then, He'll stack the cards in your favor. He'll put Himself out there for you a million times, and even if you're not looking for Him, you might find Him anyway. The apostle Paul talks about that in the Bible, and it was so in my life — the thing is (like I found), even if your head was not looking for Him, your heart may have been. It may be one of those inexpressible desires you have, what has been called "a God shaped hole in your heart". I remember how I tried to deny Him, and His Son, Jesus Christ. It took a few years, in fact, before I would go to church of my own accord — but it happened. I think I can sum up my feeling about God, about how He works, in this manner: you can say "no" to God a thousand times, and He'll not hear except the one time you say "yes". He's like that.
Raymond
1:40am friday, 25th january
God will take you back as long as you ask him to;but the bible tells you that he will come to you once and knock.Most people will not even hear it.That does not mean that he will not come to you more than once;it means that he will give every one at least one chance to follow him.You can go to him as much as you like;but only with Jesus's help.
LG
4:11am friday, 25th january
The sad truth is that there are so many ppl who will never hear Him nor ever turn to ask for help. Its these ppl that I pray for, all my loved ones. I pray for them and never for myself.
Raymond
LG