Had a minor little something or other yesterday, when I was reading a comic strip about Philip K. Dick. R. Crumb did it, some years ago. What tripped it was when Crumb wrote about Philip K. thinking Elijah had come upon him, and this crystallized a paranoid trip from about five years back. I was told, once, that I had been replaced by the Antichrist, that I wasn't really the person who had inhabited this body before 10/7/88, but the dark seed himself. I asked, then, who had replaced Philip K. Dick? And the answer was Elijah. My paranoia had a field day with that connection yesterday. It is not real, though. I must overcome it.
All of it must go, and I understand that. All thinking that I'm someone else, greater than I am or worse than I am — all of it is false. Let me be just the dreamer that I am, I should want no more than that.
My life is interesting enough without the psychosis livening it up like it does. I pray I will hold on, and that I have the mettle to withstand.
Cheryl
6:25pm thursday, 14th february
I think your doing great.
Serena190
6:35am friday, 15th february
*hugs* Fight the psychosis, man. That thingy must diee. Arrr.
Stand
6:45am friday, 15th february
I got a handle on things again. It passed, like it always does.
Raymond
2:47am saturday, 16th february
Way to go Stand;you can do handle these little tests.
Cheryl
Serena190