The flickering candle is a lone, trembling note played long.
It is an eye between this world and the next, peering in and out.
Sometimes, it is a magic drop of elixir, to cure us.
TRACY
8:19pm sunday, 17th march
for me a candle can magically light up some of our dark moments.....
TRACY
9:05pm sunday, 17th march
...Stand...when i have a friend who is going through a rough time i give him a candle with the saying..'may this candle light up some of your dark moments'
..........it works.....try it...you will bring a smile
Kyle
3:47am monday, 18th march
Stand,
I am sorry to put this here but I cannot keep e-mailing you..i dont know why. I am having a reality problems everyhting is fake and I dont know the difference between fake and reality....What is happening to me? I am reading all your stuff trying to find an answer
Stand
7:41am monday, 18th march
Hey, Kyle. I have that feeling, too, sometimes, that I'm living in a fake world and that I am the only thing in it that's real. I think, my friend, you would benefit from some therapy. Talk to your mom about this.
I, myself, what do I do? I grit my teeth and grip my chair until the feeling passes, choosing, whenever I can, the sane view that that idea is wrong, and that the world is real.
Kyle
3:44pm monday, 18th march
I am in therapy now.....I guess sometimes that the medication and therapy does not work, I think to myself maybe that life is like the movie "The Matrix" where everything is a simulation or maybe I died and went to hell and that everybody is just a figment of my imagination. I dont know....
Stand
1:16am tuesday, 19th march
Have you been bringing up these subjects in therapy? You should ask your psychologist what you should do when you have these episodes of irreality. He/she would know better than me. Keep emailing me, though.
TRACY
TRACY
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