We lose things along the way. The journey is such that sometimes we must grab the things we can, move on, and never go back to the place we left. There are always some regrets — perhaps that we could have kept some things that we have no more, that we could look at them again. I, myself, had these three notebooks I kept while I was in the depths of my madness, and I filled them with mad things. I think my mother found those, and was too disturbed by them to let me keep them. They are lost for good. I only have two or three fragments, and in fact, I have posted them on this site. (Like here and here.)
I have other fragments posted, and if you explore this site's archives, you will find them. I had an old Macintosh where I wrote a lot of stuff. Most of it makes very little sense, but I was able to keep it all — my friend was able to extract the entire contents of the hard drive and put it on a CD. But there have been other things I have lost, some books where I wrote a thing or two, or more. And the only thing we can do, sometimes, is to learn to let go. I have my memories of the books I kept, and maybe if what I wrote I don't remember, it was not that important anyway. Just a rationalization? Perhaps. But perhaps I have kept some important things in a corner of my mind that waits for me — waits until I am ready to remember those times past that during them, I wanted to forget.
Kyle
3:41pm monday, 18th march
The things we keep on paper do not matter....the things we keep on a hard drive do not matter....the things we keep in our head are as good as gold...hmmm
Stand
1:14am tuesday, 19th march
Well, Kyle, if there were a fire, and all my possessions burned down to the ground, all I would have left would be the things I have in my head. That kind of stuff is the most portable of all, in that I carry it around when I'm not carrying anything.
Kathleen
4:01am saturday, 15th april
I hope you find all of those lost things.
Katrina
3:00pm saturday, 15th april
I hope you find more and more of those lost things I wish i could Help but I have school
Kyle
Stand
Katrina