I feel sometimes like I am losing myself, little by little, crossing lines in the sand; and you know if you cross them often enough, they don't exist anymore. Sometimes, though, I build myself up, keeping promises to myself, force myself to do the right thing though no one's watching. I read somewhere that sometimes, falling from grace is not one grand sweeping motion, but slipping bit by bit — not noticing until you're fallen. I think there must be a sum within my soul, a quotient of life inside my heart of hearts, tallied constantly. And perhaps it would surprise me greatly how close that sum is to zero — that the bad almost totally erases the good.
I think in a few circumstances, fate makes us fall. We venture into the heart of darkness not knowing it for what it is; one slip makes the next slip easier, and then the next, and the next, and for that few of us, we are sudden deep within the bowels of night — we have become truly evil. There but for the grace of God go I. But it is not that way for most of our number. I think that for the greater portion of we who live, we hover around the zero factor — we do evil and good about the same. We think of others when it is convenient, otherwise we do what is good for us.
I'm trying, though. Perhaps a little bit for now, but I feel I must give an effort to cut the strings of this human animal, to go beyond the average measure of a soul. I take a step. I may wobble, but that will pass as I keep on the way. I must just press on with that which I know to be the better. And perhaps one day, the extraordinary will become ordinary.
Skandinavian
3:00pm friday, 17th may
hey hey hey! i just want to say that it's NORWAY'S NATIONAL DAY to day, 17th may!!!! the bigest national day in europe!:)
by the way, U RULE STAND!!!
keep up the good work:)
just me
1:51am thursday, 23rd may
we all fall, we all have to ge back up again. Because we fall we naturally try to get to where we fell and go farther. And no matter how even the good and evil are, one always wins. That part is up to you.
Skandinavian
just me