I think perhaps that most of us will never know what we are truly capable of, neither the heights nor the depths. The best of us that we ever act upon in the course of days spinning by is perhaps not as inspired as we would be able to do if given the most ambient of circumstances and the strongest will to act. The worst of us we only fantasize about acting out, murder of one hated, rape of one lusted after; we are never pushed, most of us, past the brink of merely desiring the evil, into committing it. We are never faced with extreme enough circumstance: the best and worst of people can sometimes be brought out by such things as natural disasters, and most of our lives suffer no such emergency. We will not ever know.
In my madness, I committed acts of good and evil in a fantasy world, great acts I could never explain in any way that make rational sense. Not real, none of them. Some of us imagine that the extreme circumstance brings out our real selves, but as one having been through a pretty extended extreme circumstance, let me say that I don't think that is so. An emergency is an altered state of being, I believe, and what we do when an emergency happens — good or bad — though I would recognize the heroic and perhaps punish the misdoings, I would not anticipate these actions revealing anything realer about the people than we see in them day to day. Our everyday selves, I think, reveal more about us than the emergency.
No, most of us will never know the ultimate moment of "do or die", but let us not think that because we never knew that moment, that we never knew our true selves... for better or worse.
Tamara
7:03am thursday, 13th june
hey,hey,hey... WOW!!!!!!!
youre sooooo deep.. yore so amazing!!
Raymond
6:27pm thursday, 13th june
Our true selves some times we keep it hidden out of fear of not knowing what will come next.We may keep our true self hidden out of circumstances.Some people need to keep their true self locked away just because they could truely want to do what is considered pure evil acts.Life goes on anyway.
Tamara
Raymond