To serve the Lord is the goal.
To serve the Lord is the journey.
To serve the Lord is the beginning.
I first thought in my life that the highest aspiration of human beings was science. When everything flew out the window (1991 — the beginning of the "episodes"), I had no thought about that subject. Then at about 1997 till a little later — when I retreated into poetry — I believed the highest aspiration of human beings was art. I had no passion for writing, though, or a little I had, and spent it all on a few paltry verses. After that, I realized that the highest aspiration is (must be) to serve God. God, who is greater than can be conceived, knows far better than you or me what my or your life should be. Plus, you get to go to Heaven if to serve God is all you try to do. Big bonus there.
Dealing with infinity, one cannot comprehend what love is like on that scale. One cannot comprehend the wisdom. All one can do is trust it, and that is called faith.
Anyway, I won't mention all the tragedy that has just occurred. You probably have had an overload of it already. Lord be with you.
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2:46am wednesday, 12th september
The voices and hallucinations: they're pretty light today, if you wanted to know. Still talking to Jesus and the Archangel Micha-el, and there's the Angel Gabri-el here, as well. Mostly been watching the news, like every American this day. Don't worry, I'm still insane.
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