There are times I think I am burned out on the world. Like I have seen, heard, felt too much, and nothing can affect me anymore. It's sort of how candy stops tasting so good when you turn sixteen or so. "Jaded," I think, is the term for it, and perhaps it happens to the best of us. What to do, then, when nothing in the whole of Earth can tantalize us anymore? What to do when you are tired of sensing anything and everything? The realization — is it perhaps a crossroads, one of the few in this lifetime? Perhaps it is thus: become bitter, be dissatisfied with just everything; or trust in something higher, that there could be purpose in even this.
What can I learn from it all? That taste tastes not so good, that hearing is no longer a tingle, that eye has seen all the colors it ever will? I think perhaps it is time to make something of it, now that the world is not new anymore — make something new. Create. Perhaps that is it: if you cannot any more find anything strange and wonderful, see if you know the things you think you know well enough to wield them in an attack on the stodge of life. Creation, I have written before, is a taste of the infinite. And I think that all roads must lead to infinity, in one way or another — if only that you give up, and never have the chance again.
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1:33pm monday, 2nd december
Creation is the only answer I have ever found. Do It TODAY!
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