Why am I such a ridiculous character? I feel I am an embarrassment to humanity in general, at times. Then there are points where I do feel okay, that I am not that bad a person, but count those as punctuation on a long, run-on sentence of inadequacy. Why, then (here is the paradox), do I think that I am such hot stuff? Like when I thought I was Jesus, then God, then Michael, and now a prophet ... hm ... I do notice the pattern there, that it is tending to decrease in magnitude. Maybe I'm getting better after all. There is, of course, the Antichrist thing, but that I take as punishment, not really ever as a reality. It's not just a prophet, here, either: it's that I'm a specific prophet, one of the two witnesses written of in chapter 11 of the Book of Revelation. And Rosanna Arquette is supposed to be the other one. I don't know why her, either.
So, I dunno. Am I on the wrong side of zero again? (Another quote from me: "When you're on the wrong side of zero, nothing is something.") Maybe that's it. When I'm back in the black, perhaps I will think of myself in the normal again. When the cosmic account books have been balanced in my soul, maybe I'll get back to the ordinary life I did so enjoy for a while there. I can only hope. Peace.
Maria
4:35am thursday, 1st november
I do hope much peace to you too! Om mani padme humg!
Maria
4:37am thursday, 1st november
Stand, when r u born? I would need day, month, year, place and TIME (precise time, hour and minutes!) I study astrology and would love to take a look in your chart!
annonymous
1:43am thursday, 15th november
i've just tunned into your site, its very
interesting to me, by reading what you wrote
seems like your searching for freedom
not only in physical form but also
inside of yourself,forever searching for
freedom in many forms,like the human spirit
is, if the only way for you is different
for many others, then maybe thats the freedom
you've been searching for~
michelle
6:22pm thursday, 3rd january
"when you're on the wrong side of zero, nothing is something"-your words are powerful...
Maria
Maria