I do not know what I want. I wonder if I ever did. Sure, back when I was doing drugs, it was the drugs that I wanted; but even then, did I really want that, and what they did to me? Currently, I hate my job where I'm working, but that is a normal situation in this world — I might guess that I wanted out of this job, but do I really even want that, to sweat it out at some other equally disappointing career? I might guess that I desire wealth, so that I wouldn't have to work at all, but what would that do to me? Would I lose some of this fire I have been caught up in of late — to succeed at this life — if I were suddenly rich, and needed do nothing and still survive quite nicely? I don't think I want fame: I believe that might be fun for a week or so, then a big hassle for the rest of it, not to mention that it could potentially swell me up quite full of myself.
Have you looked, yourself? What do you want? Is there anyone out there who knows just what they want, or are you like me, and think "I want this, except..." or "I might want that if..."? Is this the human condition, that what we want is too often not what we want, not at all? I might try to think back on simpler times, but I believe I never had such times. Maybe it is as easy as that I want love. We all want love, after all, and perhaps there is no two ways about that. But that is such a vague thing, and to receive love, people are always involved, and one never can predict what comes also with those people. What do I want? What do you want? Maybe it is that I want to stop wanting... I could guess forever.
Kyle
12:58am thursday, 17th july
I know what I want, tis the woman i love, and I will want this always and forever....
Michele
7:05pm thursday, 24th july
I do not think it is only you who questions what they want. I think there are many who question and never know... I know I am one.
Kyle
Michele
me?!