I didn't get very much sleep last night, so this might ramble. When I did sleep, I dreamed that I was swallowed by a whale. I was in some sort of pod or vehicle with some people which went into the water, and when it came back up, we were not on the surface of the water, but was surrounded by baleen, sunlight coming through the crevices. (Baleen, in case you didn't know, is what most larger whales have instead of teeth, to strain out the krill — like shrimp — that they feed on. A lot of krill.) Freakin' strange. I woke up just then, or else I probably would not have remembered it. It's all hazy about why I even went into the water in the first place. Plane crash? I don't know. Like most dreams, they're only part of the spell of sleep, that which is broken by the first crack of dawn's light shining into your eyes. Less than ashes.
On a completely different topic altogether, I'm at work and I don't feel like working. I guess that's part of the human condition. I haven't felt motivated since the time I told them I was leaving. Now all that remains is that I find some type of lead in Korea, give me an excuse to go there. Funny, too, two other people have quit since the time I told them I was on the way out (one we all found out about today). That last project we were all on is knocking everyone off. "Dropping like flies" seems to be the catchphrase of the day. Yeah. I'm so glad to be going, like a bird crouched, poised before takeoff. Sorry if I've bored you today. I told you I might ramble. I'll get some sleep tonight.
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7:13am tuesday, 26th august
If you're not motivated by your work then you're in the wrong job- but I guess you know that already!- find something you love doing and get someone to pay you for it that's the answer. Go for your dream.
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