Madness, for all its misdirection, is a battle of oneself against oneself. For if it be madness true, there is no other place where the voices and visions come from other than oneself. The prophets had it good: it is said in the Bible that what you do to discern a true prophet from false is to see if his prophecies come true or no: that they have some basis in the real world. The madman, not so, whose visions are of nothing genuine, whose tales of the end of the world never come to pass (it is the doomsday clock that never rang). You fight forces that attack you for no reason, as something in your mind has broken off and achieved an anima of its own, and it assails you with your inmost thoughts and desires. There is no escape from it, for it is you, and only you, against yourself.
Yet, it is possible for you to overcome that very self. I did it. Not that I did it alone, or idly; I had help from above, in my reckoning, and from medication, and the realization that the unreal was unreal came after years of its defeating my notions of what reality was. Perhaps, now, on a smaller scale, we all of us may need to defeat ourselves from time to time. We are by parts both animal and angel, and though it may be fun to be an animal, we must draw a line in the sand where the animal may not pass, and we must let the angel in us win. In madness, it is magnified: for instance, in my case, it was like the Archangel Michael defeating the Antichrist (the Beast, after all). If distorted, the picture strikes with greater passion. But think not your battles are small, just because they are mundane. Defeating yourself is the hardest battle of all.
Antti from Sweden
3:13pm thursday, 19th february
There are so many antichrists in the mental hospitals that You can't believe. The bad introjected object causes the tension between the good and bad. You're bad and the beast is yelling in You. There are so many beasts that none of them is the biblical outmost beast. Beast is just a tension wher the bad rules. The revelation man was a madman. He didn't know that the beasts do disappear too. Like the dragons and snakes they appear and disappear. You're not going to hell. There should be 100000 beasts and dragons in a row to be judged. Take it easy. The bad object rules, but it's not you who is bad. The prophecies are made of insane men. They have had the same problem with the beasts, snakes and dragons, but they have managed to swim in the mainstream instead of drowning. Don't worry.
Antti from Sweden