It is a fantasy: to do something great and honorable. To paint a picture like van Gogh's Starry Night, to theorize a thing like Relativity, to compose such like Beethoven's Ninth. I always thought I was meant for something great, but whether that was a prophetic feeling or just arrogance, I am as yet unable to tell. So far, it's leaning on the side of conceit — I have not accomplished much, as of yet. I know not, as most of us are like, know not what I am meant for. And I think I must not complain when I find out, and be for something mundane. Also, I think I must be patient. Who knows when it will strike, or if it does a thing like strike: your true purpose may not hit you all at once — it may become slowly realized, instead. I will wait, and see what the wind whispers.
Of course, there is that chance it will not come at all, the Reason to all my reasons. That, perhaps, is not uncommon, that one may die without ever finding out why. Here, too, I must not grumble. I have been given this wonderful thing called life, and I know enough what I should do. I have my faith — at least that – and not everyone has that kind of armor against the winds. And there is, too, that I must guard against the delusional. I think I am not alone in this, to believe we're to be something that we never can be. Best to keep one's head low, to practice humility and of course, do what you can with what you have. If it comes, the Purpose cannot be denied. If it does not, better truly good than falsely great.
Sio
8:39am saturday, 13th december
You are right, the way to the 'Reason to all my reasons' is through humility and sincerity, but most of all through a hungry heart. Don't let exotic inner landscapes seduce you from this hunger for the 'unified field' that is your real home and your real self. Feel the homesickness.
PunkClown
9:08am friday, 19th december
To have touched just one other person's life, to make a difference, help them see things from another perpective, to elicit a smile where there was a frown, the smallest acts of random kindness, are these not also great and honorable?
Freia
12:17am wednesday, 21st april
This web page is an achievement in itself, for it clearly brings relief to a lot of people.
I have personally always feared greatness, don't know why. I do know I have what it takes, but since someone is already doing a rather good job at it(whatever I would wan't to excel in), why bother?
Sio