I have used up all the formulas in the equations of life. All the set answers have been taken — some by lesser minds, some by my betters who wanted some rest from the complications. From now on, I will be writing my own scripts, for all the pat words have I spoken, all the prefigured procedures have been performed, all the usual emotions have already been felt. There is nothing left, not like that. It will take some effort, I think, from now on: no more coasting on yesterday's wave. But it is a good thing, is it not? Carving new neural pathways, instead of the grooves time-worn with constant use? Habit is all well and good, but routine is far too close to rut, at least as far as I'm concerned. This is a break from it all.
New dreams? Perhaps not that far, but new ways of approaching the old ones. Dreams I give up not so easily, hold them almost as tightly as I clutch at life itself. Hm. I need this, I think, to continue — the old ways don't work anymore. It is fine to spin one's wheels in place when performing an exercise of your systems, but at some point, you must remove the braces that hold you back, and let 'er rip. Maybe unsteady at first, but hopefully to gain momentum, to be of moment once I get going at full steam. So, what now? What do I do? I am a child in a completely new playground. I must adjust myself to a new horizon, I must reorient myself to a new tilt of the earth. Nothing is what it seems... but is it ever?
Kyle
12:26am wednesday, 7th january
We shall never be able to analyze this life, and there is so much to do and so little time to do it in.........
Kyle
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8:53am wednesday, 7th january
Nothing like moving to a new culture to give you a fresh perspective on life. Continue to change and grow, be open, things are about to happen!
Kyle
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