How much am I given to bs? I think I have crossed that line so many times in the past that the line doesn't exist for me anymore. I am not so much a liar, not like I used to be, but sometimes, I take tangential information and make it seem like that's the main point. Bs. In the business world, the stuff flies freer than loose change, but it gets into you to do this other places when you start to subscribe to that model. You start to rely on it as a primary mode of conversation, and that's not good. I haven't gotten to the point where all I am is the bs, but if I continue to fling it whichever way, then one might assume that it would be a natural consequence that that could become all that I'm ever capable of. That might be called "death of personality". Heaven forbid.
On this site, right here, I am the least prone to it. A lot of that has to do with my anonymity, because I don't need to put on a face when I have no face at all. I should hope everyone has something like this in their lives, some quiet place where they need not put on airs, need not resort to the dark smelly stuff when groping for a response. This site is my confessor, and perhaps we Christians have the right idea here: a soul needs to be unburdened once in a while, or else that soul starts to integrate the dirt it accumulates into itself — it becomes the fraud. I must watch myself, I think, and if the line has become so blurred between right and not so right, I must need get a strong magic marker and draw it again. I believe in second chances. Let there be hope for me, yet.
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6:41pm friday, 13th february
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myraj
6:45pm friday, 13th february
i really lliked this entry. honestly it made you appear more human to me.my personal belief is that if you're in a sitch where u haveto throw a lot of bs around you should get out. there's is no need to be in a place where you cant be your self. the risk is too much. if you get close to some one as the "facade" then they are really close to the fake you and not who you really are.
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