What kind of mistakes do you make? Are they just slips of the fingers, mistakes that anyone might make, it just happens to be you that falters? I think mine are like that, these days, but I remember when it was different. I recall fundamental flaws in logic and common sense back when, especially when I was heavily into drugs. I recall, too, some gross mistakes in judgment when I was deep in my psychosis — these two cases, though, they have a similar genesis: they both come from my thinking that somehow, I knew better. It comes down to simple pride; I knew better than anyone else; I didn't need to prepare, because I could pull off the miracle if I had to; I was greater than anyone could imagine, and I didn't need to explain why. I was just too wonderful for words.
There are good reasons why pride is the deadliest of the seven deadly sins. In the Christian mythos, Lucifer believed that he could conquer the omnipotent because of his pride — like mine, a fundamental flaw in logic. What kind of mistakes do you make? Everyone makes mistakes, after all, and we all even make big ones. They say a lot about us, our errors: what do your mistakes say about you? I might wish that my mistakes were such that I trusted too much, or that I was kind to the point where people took advantage of me; mine, even these days, are not such as these. The worst of my mistakes of late have been of timidity, a lack of courage from one who has been burned much in the past for his risk taking. Take a look at your mistakes: to err is human, after all — what human are you?
lydia
6:02pm tuesday, 30th march
i was hoping you have left to a monastery to study martial arts after your blackout- but you are back by this stupid machine ( i mean computer). would you like to write to me?lydiakim5@hotmail.com
lydia
Rich