I don't know what I want. But when does anyone? Given one's heart's desire, one may find that the heart has been wrong, all this time. Desire is so tricky sometimes. We want what we can't have; and whatever we have, we don't want; we want what is impossible; and if we get that, we don't know what to do with it. No, don't think about it: you'll never figure out just what it is that will ultimately satisfy you. And even if you think you have it, there just may come one strange day when you look around and want a completely new life, away from everything that you thought made you happy. Don't get me wrong — happiness is one of the greatest things in the world, and trying to become one sustained in that state is a noble enough goal. But never think, "this is it", that this whatever you have will make you never want anything else. Pascal said that the heart has its reasons that reason knows not why. But sometimes the heart has no reason at all, wanting something because sometimes, it's just being stupid.
JASMINE
1:35am wednesday, 30th june
I WISH I HAD THE GIFT YOU HAVE FOR EX-
PRESSING SUCH BEAUTIFUL FEELINGS.YOUR
THOUGHTS & WORDS REACH MY HEART IN A WAY
I CAN'T DESCRIBE.AS I SAID BEFORE,MY SON
HAS SCHIZOPHRENIA,& YOUR WORDS LIFT MY
HEART.YOU HELP ME TO KEEP THE FAITH.GOD
BLESS YOU,&NEVER GIVE UP.KEEP WRITING.
JASMINE