It’s quieted down, somewhat. I have gone through some harrowing fear this time, but I guess (in the grand scheme of things) it wasn’t that big a deal. I have found much comfort in the life of Philip K. Dick — one of the reasons for me not to believe that I am some sort of devilspawn, who will take over the world with all kinds of magical powers, is that Philip K. had a similar trip as I am having now, and he went on to live a relatively normal life. That’s all I really want, right now: a normal life. Since the last episode to now (I don’t think this really counts as a third episode, since I didn’t really do anything stupid this time), I had secretly wanted to be a prophet — I wanted to believe in a few, select parts of my madness. I don’t want that anymore. Going round a full circle as I have, though, back to the beginning, may not be a fruitless trip in the long run. The experience that turns you back to your roots: that can be priceless in itself. So, anyway, I’m still talking to Jesus Christ and His angels (mostly Micha-el, there), but it’s fine. Like my madness has mostly been, these good voices just want me to live a better life. No, not too bad; not too bad at all.
mangoprawns
1:41pm friday, 30th july
I love this website. It's the first real one I've come across. See Ya! I'mm of to read up on PK Dick. Thanks for the tip.
lydia
6:51pm friday, 30th july
About Zyprexa- they've put me on it too, and i find it more addictive than any other drug, i am not sure if anyone can ever get of it, at least i have terrible abstinence - i sweat and shake and feel not good physically. It is a new drug, aand i think it is a trap. What harm is in talking to archangel Michael anyway?
Stand
5:14am saturday, 31st july
The danger is in losing touch with what is real. This time, fortunately, I didn't do anything stupid, but I have been known to when off the meds.
mangoprawns
lydia
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