What is in us that refuses to let things go? There are times when we believe we have release, only to be seized down the line by some latent passion, a sudden wrenching desire. The liberty is peripheral: something deep down grips whatever thing in question with eminent force, as if holding onto a fundamental need. How do we loose ourselves? In the huddled, twitching dark of our unconscious, a perverse compulsion seems not to surrender that thing which the part of us in the light desperately wants freedom from. But I think there is hope. I think what seizes us, being of the darkness, is intrinsically a blind force. It may be tricked — I cannot in this space say how this may be so, for it differs dramatically from case to case, but I do say something may indeed be slipped by it. If you suffer from what will not let go, take it to heart that something may be done. The darkness we need not acquiesce to it the final victory. We need not surrender the heart of our souls.
Shada
3:16am wednesday, 1st december
Your journal is beautiful. Thank you for sharing it with the world.
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lil'majk
12:24am thursday, 2nd december
hey mate... i don't know why, but i'm reading your journal since i first saw it (half of year ago or even more)... strange things is, that i can always find here something 'for me'... strange... i just wanted to write something... keep on rocking ;)
nikita
1:36am thursday, 9th december
I cannot in this space say how this may be so, for it differs dramatically from case to case, but I do say something may indeed be slipped by it. If you suffer from what will not let go, take it to heart that something may be done.
nikita
1:39am thursday, 9th december
i tried to quote you above, sorry. just wanted to ask if you can try to explain what do you do in your case: how do you switch your attention, how do you quit, what can bring you some peace?
...and i thank you for this diary
Stand
3:23pm thursday, 9th december
No problem. The main thing: I pray.
Laura
10:53pm tuesday, 21st december
Hello. :) I came across your journal back in 2002, while searching for journals run by people with mental illness. I was suffering from serious mental problems then brought on by a nasty breakdown I had gone through the year before. Now that I read your story again, I just wanna say that I'm glad you made it through all that. I've made it too. And though things will never ever be the same, I'm glad that it all happened. It brought me so much closer to God. And though I actually do still struggle, at times greately, I prefer it a million times to the emptiness I felt before. It all keeps me close to The Lord.
*stops ranting, sorry!!* Awesome journal. *will be lurkin* :D God Bless. *^_^*
Shada
Stand