You know, it's not just how you look at life. It's how life looks at you. To speak of control is perhaps more an illusion than the solidity of choice, and the decisions we make are mostly reflex actions to the circumstances presented us. Gut instinct is our main guiding principle, especially in the heat of the moment. In the decisions I have made in my own life, I feel that when I was left to myself I made only the wrong choices. It may just be this: anything that I have done right I have He who is above to thank for. I do nothing right of myself. Perhaps I exaggerate. Perhaps that is just what it means to be human.
And how has life looked at me? Do you wonder how has life looked at you? "Death smiles at us all. All a man can do is smile back." [quote by Marcus Aurelius, I get this from the movie Gladiator] But yet, life must be the stronger, n'est-ce pas? If death were the stronger, there would be no life left, would there? That there is any life at all means that life is still the victor in the struggle. So what if death smiles at us? Maybe it is that life smiles at you, too — smiles at everyone. We have an ally in life, which is stronger than death. Does it seem like there's no smile for you, though? Then perhaps this is it: "Life smiles at us all, too. But most of us don't know what we're looking at."
