I daydream about it: the Theories of Attraction solved for two bodies in motion, inevitable progressions of fate leading to a nexus of actualization: liftoff, and I do not even have to leave my seat. I imagine that even were I to see the hand of fate before my very eyes, I would still be blind to its workings, so it must be that I will be disarmed, and talk about it as much as I will, it will be nothing like I imagine. I wonder why I am so hopeful, for there in my past like stars in the sky are all the miniature tragedies — all I know of love — that twinkle to me that they are all I will ever know, wait for the next to join them. But I keep the dream stringed to a perfect tune, a song not yet written hinting it will be born into my soul, the stuff of popcorn movies, in one word: magic. O how many the time I almost settled for less, but the dream is too strong to die under this mortal’s hand or failings, a distant oasis that I keep in sight as I wander through this desert life.
Strawberry
4:00pm tuesday, 21st june
Rejection feels like a knife in the heart. Just a few words. I step out into society, and then I get a rejection.
It reminds me why it felt so good to be nobody.
Stand
6:08pm tuesday, 21st june
But at least you took the chance. Not everyone does.
beekeeper
11:23am monday, 11th july
I had a similar experience that also threw me into dreaming about the universal laws and theories. It's amazing how easily the understanding comes when it's based on life experiences. I had a 3 in one experience. After reading a book on such topics my sister called me into the room to help with a computer problem. I'd also been told about a thousand times that day that I needed to "move on". This was filling my mind and as the problem unveiled itself, she was filling out a document, trying to get to another page to fill in the next section and showed me how when she went back and clicked on next it would go through the multitude of documents there but she'd get to where she currently had been and next didnt work. was it stuck?.... no.... the system couldnt hold an infinite number of nexts. The possibilities were too many and there wasnt enough memory on the disk. How could you click Next if Next doesnt exist yet. You had to click New. Bring it into existance first afterwards next exists. New Before Next. Shit Before The Shovel. Etc. Love your page though. Stay Mad from another Mad Friend.
Strawberry
Stand
beekeeper