Night falls, and soon, dreaming shall come, airy, overtaking the solid things.
Night falls, when the monsters lurk in the unknown corners, awakened by moonlight.
Night falls, and stars will fall, for the heights are not easy to keep as company.
Night falls, friend to the mysterious, those who will not meet your eyes in hours of day.
Night falls, and no fiction can capture all that is strange in the real netherworld there.
Night falls, hope to keep against the odds, tiny flames to stand against all winds.
Night falls, and I cannot tell friend from foe from any distance at all; neither can they.
Webster
2:59pm friday, 24th june
Venturing out into the world is frightening. Sometimes I feel like a turtle, carrying around my shell, tucking myself and my appendages securely inside. It takes courage to stick your neck out.
Darkness of night can make fears and aloneness intensify. Sleep can create it own existence and exagerate terror and fear through nightmares. Sleeplessness can intensify fear through exhaustion.
Othertimes the stillness, darkness and tranquility of night creates a peaceful haven. During both these times I pray. I will be gone for several days. Peace to you all.
Reflection
5:38am saturday, 25th june
If god put me into this situation, then I can get out of it.
Reflection
1:33pm saturday, 25th june
And the preacher's not a saint anymore.
Strawberry
12:53pm sunday, 26th june
If God put me in this situation then I have a job to do. Don't know what it is. But I am here to learn something or be something, and I'm up for the challenge. Yeah, I occationally lose my resolve. Maybe if I mature more I'll become less uncertain of myself. My grandma is 89 and she says that she can now say anything in the world she wants and get away with it.
My brother gave me good advice about rejection. Basically, ignor it and move on. Don't dream about an ideal, desired response from other people. He said he laughs at rejection and I should only consider it part of playing a game. I find such an attitude to be spooky. But then, I do remember that when my brother skied down a mountain, he simply went straight down, like a dive bomb. I always love reading quotes from Oscar Wilde becasue he was the ultimate game player of life. But isn't it hard to play games with people and be moral and truthful at the same time?
Moving to Vermont. Be about a week before I have internet access again.
I'll miss you all.
Reflection
9:41pm sunday, 26th june
Well lets be truthful. I want to see it all flushed away, in a giant tidal wave.
Reflection
9:42pm sunday, 26th june
Grab your soul.
Stand
7:14am tuesday, 28th june
Most people think,
Great God will come from the skies,
Take away everything
And make everybody feel high.
But if you know what life is worth,
You will look for yours on earth:
And now you see the light,
You stand up for your rights. jah!
Webster
Stand