I am as airy as a passing thought, and leave no trace;
and there is no need to wonder if any will remember me:
I am but a dream upon waking, slipping from all vision.
Reflection
11:58pm sunday, 10th july
With the birds I'll share this lonely view.
reflection
12:07am monday, 11th july
I sip on a drink, and I start to float away.Where I belong, inside my tears, when I look at what you've done.
beekeeper
12:38pm monday, 11th july
I wonder, I wonder why you think this way.
Strawberry
4:03pm tuesday, 12th july
Reflection, are you pissed at your mom for having you? Simply, you wish that you had never been born (I assume because you find this life so disappointing.) Or, in that house of schizo, was she one too?
Beekeeper, be careful. Reflection wants what he doesn't know and whenever he gets close to getting what he wants (but hates because he can't beleive that what he wants can even exist) he goes nuclear. The resulting blast vaporizes every creature on the planet. So Reflection always gets what he wants. He bombs the hell out of what he wants until it has ceased to exist.
As long as I live I'll never forget H13.
Stand
4:20pm tuesday, 12th july
Strawberry is back! And the balance is once again restored....
reflection
8:52pm wednesday, 13th july
I'm extremely pissed, because the other night I almost had a crazy episode, like the first one yrs ago. (You know the kind where everything speaks to you, the tv, radio, etc, etc.but this time I just let it pass.Let the God fuck with me again!COWARD
Strawberry, I have beaten God, devil, jesus christ, and all your mediums.They come from the same place.
Reflection
10:41pm wednesday, 13th july
God will poison you with lies.
Reflection
10:44pm wednesday, 13th july
I wonder why God isn't embarassed.If you have enough power to create life, then you can sustain life.Ask the children in afica, or ask the amish people, that still create kids.
Strawberry
1:34am thursday, 14th july
If God, devil, jesus christ, and all the other mediums come from the same place, then where do you come from Reflection? Where do I come from? I feel like I've got a soul. I don't feel like I put poison into this world, and I sure try not to lie at all. You must feel it too Reflection, you must feel your soul inside.
Nah. God isn't embarrassed. If he witnesses the suffering of mankind, down to the one, such as the night you had where you were overwhelmigly tormented, then I think that God is sad. But if God witnesses the triumph of mankind, down to the one, such as the night you were victorious and stayed steady against the torment to find freedom, then God is joyous.
I think that we may run into confusion if we give human emotions or human motivations to God.
I've been thinking about your posts Reflection, and a favorite word pops into my mind. You are fey. I'm not certain how the dictionary defines the fey, but I do have my own definition. Originally the word is descriptive of the fairy folk. The American concept of a fairy is pretty meek. Middle American, (where you were so naughty to place poor Eric several days ago) likes fairies and thinks them pretty. Typical of us, we don't like contradictions or ambiguity. We are a culture that usually likes our Good and Bad straight and simple, and we will "dummy down" rich literary sources until they conform to a view of the world that is, frankly, a bore and delusional.
Strawberry
2:09am thursday, 14th july
Hey Stand, the text is scrolling off the page to the right again. I think that Reflection's "........" have to be chopped down.
So, this word that tickles me, fey. The fey can be wicked or the fey can be good, as the mood happens to strike them. The fey are wild. The fey are elemental, and as such, labeling them with terms of human morality or motivation is like slapping a band-aid on a stone. Or trying to stick a band-aid on a pool of water, on a flame, or wanting to make a band-aid stick to a current of air. The elements such as air, fire, water, and earth are in a state that can be described by words but never captured accurately by words.
People who are fey are hard to judge by social standards - or to even explain their behavior with words. I think that some of the visitors to this website are drawn with facination to Reflection's posts because he is fey. It is possible to say, "hey, that guy isn't medicated!" as if that is the way to explain the words and behavior of the man.
Maybe, Reflection is given a hard time in this world because he is half human and half fey. If he were strictly human or fairy he wouldn't be tormented. But as he is, he is stuck between two magics, the magic of the human emotions, and the magic of the fey elementals.
Strawberry
2:11am thursday, 14th july
Now the text is scrolling off both sides of the screen.
Stand
4:25am thursday, 14th july
I'm on it.
Anna Cole
7:06am sunday, 24th july
Hello Stand. I found no other why to communicate with you on this site other than posting in public. I have been reading your site for several years now...not all the time, I just "check in" from time to time. Each time, I am always astounded and proud and your creativity and your progress in defeating your illness. Both my brother and sister have schizophrenia, my grandmother did as well. I find you to be an inspiration. I would like to know if you would be willing to let me use any of your words in song. I am a musician and you can hear my music here..www.myspace.com/anvilchorus
This would be a great honor. If you are unwilling to allow this, I most assuredly understand. Thank you so much for your willingness to share your thoughts...it would be an honor to put them to music. I hope this finds you doing well. Thank you.
Anna
Stand
7:33am sunday, 24th july
Use whatever words you want. Just give H13.com credit. My email is at the bottom of the page, by the way. Cheers.
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